Life After 5th July 2009

想笑　来伪装掉下的眼泪

点点头　承认自己会怕黑

我只求　能借一点的时间来陪

你却连同情都不给

想哭　来试探自己麻痹了没

全世界　好像只有我疲惫

无所谓　反正难过就敷衍走一回

但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰　会不会

让我忘了你是谁

夜越黑　梦违背

难追难回味

我的世界将被摧毁

也许事与愿违

累不累　睡不睡

单影无人相依偎

夜越黑　梦违背

有谁肯安慰

我的世界将被摧毁

也许颓废也是另一种美

After an incident that happen on 6th July, i always remind myself about one things, don scare of anything, just do it, don think too much, nothings is scary then almost die.. i always said to other people that i'm the kind if people that don 'tiu' other people though, what they said, but actually that is fake.. i very care of other people though, care about how people will said about me.. but now i had a strong determination to do this, to do whatever i like, whatever i wish and whatever i dream.. luv people that i luv, it is really a present from god to let us to meet the one we luv.. when he look into ur eye and say 'i luv you' pls believe it, it is the code of god to let u accept the gift..

when u only has 1500$$, how u going to plan to go further study, to giv pocket money to parent, to let ur brother to go university study, to go travel, to go attend music class, to go out had fun, haih,, life like this.. one word--- 'cool' ya.. things won't become bad if we think it is good.. like a 9 years old boy said, if we think is happy we won't feel pain and tired..

don hav even a hundred inside bank account after working for 1 years ++ = failed.. i tell myself no big deal.. life goes on.. people think i need to read a lot of investment/financial/law of success book, but i not yet read it, so how, just forgive it, i don want to bother about it.. i told myself when people giv a high expectation to u, don feel pressure, it is the time to show ur ability..

i started to realize, happy is a choice..

thx to LS, FY, SS, CN, Mr Vun and specially thx Hong Xien n Yu Chong, Lim's Family, thx to let me join you all on my birth day.. it is warm when u see people smile to u n said happy birthday, that is the bigger birthday wish that i made.. if not u all, i will celebrating my birthday alone, haha, so sad ya, no others friend want to share the day with me.. hope loneliness lastly wil change to loveliness..

recently got think of want to find a girl to pa dou, but... don know how to start, who is the right one.. i choose her or let the fate to meet us together.. is she the one i like, bout her altitude, personality.. or she already beside u for long time ago.. "lov at first sight" is mean the lower part of ur body though, is not ur heart, cos i think if we not communicate with each other for a few times, how we know we going to be suitable.. we r willing to tolerance with each other..

my dream is to perform at the stage with my friends to sing and instrumenting to the people that hav passion to hear.. hope after 35yrs old i can traveling around the world, am i chasing for my dream now?? i keep asking myself..

yes, that is a lot of people hav better qualification then me, but i'm still who i am..the only and the one..

My Part 2 of Luv Story start with this song..

你说你爱了不该爱的人

你的心中满是伤痕

你说你犯了不该犯的错

心中满是悔恨

你说你尝尽了生活的苦

找不到可以相信的人

你说你感到万分沮丧

甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的

你又何苦一往情深

因为爱情总是难舍难分

何必在意那一点点温存

要知道伤心总是难免的

在每一个梦醒时分

有些事情你现在不必问

有些人你永远不必等

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